We all must be experienced pain after pain, disappointments after disappointments, anger after anger. And we all must be experienced bitter past, and sometimes the past haunts us until present. We are living in the violent world. Sometimes, we as humans, are tend to give up. We often walk in the dark for too long, that we no longer could see the light. We become blind. There is a time when we cannot accept what we are facing, we look for someone to blame, so we don’t need to deal with so much burdens. But then, you never feel a relieve, other than tired. And you hurt people, because you are hurt.
And then, the fact of being alone for most time often exhausts you. You see what is in front of you, and nobody is there, while all you need is just someone’s presence, physically, to accompany you. Not imagination, nor someone in your dream. When you wake up, the first thing that comes is the memory of the past, though you don’t want it. Trying to get rid of them, but because you are alone, they come again and haunt you. What do you expect to just get out of the situation that depress your emotion at this time.
But I learn, the more you resist reality, the more you actually making wound of yourself.
And I also learn, that the power of mind is very helpful. And hence, being rational is the first choice.
In the Scriptures, God says: “for everything there is a season” (Ecc 3:1a). And followed by the next verses: “a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.” I often ask Him, “why so many tears?” or “when is this end?”. When we look at the worst circumstances that happen to us right in front of our eyes, we now may know that it is God who made it all happen. In accordance by the words above, for the good and the bad, everything is under His control.
If you ask “why?”, the answer is “He has made everything beautiful in its time” (Ecc 3:11a) so “people fear before Him” (Ecc 3:14c). In the verses written in paragraph above, we can see that God gives and takes the positive and negative circumstances. Not only the good thing in our lives, but He also control the bad thing.
Human can easily disappoint other people, and they often they do not feel that they are wrong or what they did is irrevocable. It all happened because human is basically an egoistic person. Eventually, we who have been hurt by other selfishness are should be the one that recuperate. We are responsible to ourselves.
But if we just focus on ourselves other than God, ultimately we can never realize that we are wasting our time and we are slowing down our steps to arrive at the fulfillment of God’s promise. He definitely wants us to be ready as soon as possible to finally can give the reward to us. But only once we are ready to receive it. If we understand that everything, literally EVERYTHING, is under His control, why are we wasting our time to drown into prolonged doubts.
Our duty is simply to believe in Him. If human want to be trusted, why He wouldn’t? His desire is for us to make Him as a priority in our lives.
Learn to cope with God. Because the answer of every circumstances in our lives lies within Him alone. And when we believe in Him, His real presence although He is not physically visible, the strength is a real thing because it’s coming from the inside, where He lives, your heart.
It’s not easy. I’m also insistently through tears and pain as night falls, when darkness take control of my sight. But God, like another common father, want us to grow even more, and be better prepared to receive His reward.