Sometimes i wonder if God is joking with me.
When i thought He finally introduced me to “the potential” future husband,
he likes another girl,
he is not a gentleman,
he takes me for granted,
so i started to wonder whether i was made for someone else?
I wonder, do i need to be concerned?
I wonder, do i need to keep looking for him?
I wonder, do i need to stand still and wait for him to come to me?
I wonder, do i need to go somewhere so i can find him?
Where and when, has been my question lately.
So i put myself on a place where i don’t want to look anymore, because the world is so scary, and i am sooo protecting my heart in getting hurt, or disappointed.
Living in a lonely place where my heart feels it’s the safest place on earth.
But it feels empty at the same time.
So i wonder,
does God wants me to be alone?
Or to live my life to the fullest with someone i can embrace for the rest of my life?
And i wonder whether there is someone out there who would think the same as me?