Just got back from the pool.
Supposed to go to a public pool, but ended up in a gym pool.
Swam for about 40 minutes in the cold dark pool beside my office. When i signed up to be a member here, i knew i wouldn’t use the pool because i was too scared (for some reasons) to swim there. But this evening i’ve got a companion.
The pool is 25m length with about 1m depth. Shallow. But i barely could see the bottom. That scared me to hell.
At the first 100m i did sprint and lost my breath after that. I knew i should face my fears. Find a way out.
I fear of the darkness. I fear of what it may do to me.
People say that i am a brave one, when i see something challenging, i would go and face it, and conquer it.
But not for darkness.
I have never felt that insecure to swim in a pool. All those calms when swimming in a 50m length and 5m depth pool, and enjoyed myself when swimming in the ocean, it’s all nothing compared to swimming in the dark.
No wonder i am so scared to go for an open water diving – though i really wish i could be a diver – because the deeper you go, the darker it is.
Turned out the pool is under treatment. Bitter, dirty-dark.
I stopped at my 1,525m.
Thank God i’ve got a friend this evening. Thanks to you, L! 🙂